This is MY Life!

Major Breakthrough of my Life.

Today I wrote and published a blog and the very thing that holds me back happened. Someone confronted my opinion on something major that happened in the world. And everyone is entitled to their opinion. 

What's held me back was someone not liking what I did. 

Currently this is irritating to me as I have honestly moved past this. Hallelujah! 

Anyways up to this point I have been more concerned with trying to change someone's opinion of me. If they didn't like me I wanted to try and change their mind of me. There has even been some I was scared of.. even at this age. Fearing someone would say something mean to me or about me. I just wanted everyone to like me.

You see I have always had a soft spot for those who were unable to defend themselves; the underdog of sorts. I was raised to believe that we all came here special and no one was more important than the next. So when I did see someone being picked on, I wouldn't necessarily stop it. Sometimes I would try but I truly am not confrontational at all. When it was over I would go to that person and comfront them and be by their side. I befriended them simply because they needed someone. This would cost me some superficial friends and I then became the one being attacked and bullied. 

I feel the same way today. It doesn't matter, when I see someone picking on someone else I really dislike it and will defend where I can. Defending is an act preparing to go to war and yet I still want to. Perhaps it's not even defending, it's standing up for those who can't. 

Usually asking that person to explain their point as I believe it's also important to try and understand each other. Even if the person is super rich or famous why try to bring someone down? It takes so much energy, it's easier to lift someone up. I lift people up. 

My breakthrough came among this irritation this morning and I knew it bothered me and I wanted to resolve it because I was tired of hiding from it. 

And Bingo! It hit me,,the questions came. Why was I even concerned and why did it bother me so much. Then my wonderful husband asked what value does this person bring? I thought about it and tried to go through the inventory and I couldn't come up with anything. I'm like, why would I even keep this person around in my life? We then discussed about being in the public eye that there is always going to be people like this, to help bring the balance into your life. I thought of this for a minute and thought.....NO.... I have enough negative talk going on inside my own head. I do not need to keep a bunch of people around me just in case I forget. This is my space, my life and this is something I can control. I no longer accept any negative behaviour in my presence. 

Yes we can have a debate and a difference on opinion but putting down anyone else in my space is no longer required, necessary. 

I have been promoting self talk and self care and motivating others all of my life. I have received many notes of thanks for changing their view point and choosing to see the brighter side of life. These are the people who truly matter to me, I have nothing to prove to them. All I need to do is just be me. Period. There are people who don't get it and choose to challenge my beliefs. You are no longer required to show up, your assigned has been changed and you're being relocated to our sanitation department. No worries once you've gone through that department we welcome you back with open arms. 

I am succulent, at least that's what a friend of mine says and I have to say I have to agree with. I am powerful and beautiful, motivational, inspiring. I am a woman on fire to live her life with my own rules. Yours are yours and they do not apply to me. Just like mine do not belong to you, you can test them out and see how they fit but you'll have to test it out yourself. I now choose to make my life savoury and I am ready to share it. 

I also would like to apologize to the masses. You see I have been the one who was the biggest bullshitter around. I first need to apologize to those who thought it was acceptable to dump your crap off onto me and into my space. I didn't realize I would get caught with illegal dumping. I thought I was doing you a favour and that you would like me. Sorry. Not sorry but I love you. 

Also to those who have followed me and believed me when I said this is a safe environment for you to be in and that you could use some of the light we shine to find your path back and heal. I now understand that it really wasn't that safe because I allowed the illegal dumping in the space. My heart is opened now and I know you are watching and will be here when it's right. 

I finally get it that I no longer need to chase those who don't believe in me. I already have a full cheer leading squad by my side. And for those who have always been there secretly cheering me on from the sidelines, I am eternally grateful.... . Thank you. Thank you to each one of you. Even the ones who are needing to go next door I am really grateful for you to push me to wake up to my life and for me to realize I do not need to carry this shit around anymore. 

So from now on, all issues dealing with shit first must go to the sanitation department. So if it's bullshitting, or just simply shit, either putting something or someone down. Consider this your notice to evacuate immediately and line up next door at the sanitation department. We will be here when you get done.

I gotta tell ya, I just came through that department and it's like no where I've been, not as scarey as I thought it would be. The benefits of going through sanitation is freedom, you'll feel lighter, you'll glow, smile more, somehow it's replaced with love. It's like magic. 

I no longer tolerate others pointing out flaws. This is who I am, this is who I have always been. This is why I love everyone. Remember we are all created perfectly flawed designed to fulfill our destiny of greatness. If you're ready to open your greatness I say "Welcome".